Finally, I have an answer to my long awaited blood test. Why is it that doctor offices are eager to bill you without ever sharing your results? I was told if results were bad they would call otherwise I would receive them in the mail. Never receiving the call and waiting on the mail only to receive bill after bill. Calling to reschedule follow-up appointment because of being out of town and the soonest they could see me was late October.
*Figuring that was good news my heart was content*
Frustrated at paying bills and trying to make heads and tails out of partial statements with the medical field I figured if I am going to pay this crazy amount I should at least see my test results. So I called seeking my information.
Then yesterday afternoon I receive 'the call'.
Mrs. Williams we want to see you as soon as possible. Your test confirm you have Rheumatoid Arthritis.
My head had gone somewhere else since they never contacted me or seemed in any hurry to get me in when I called 4 weeks ago. Its been 3 months since they ran those tests.
Letting her know I was going to be out of town they want to see me the moment I get back. Really? NOW, you are in a hurry!
So my brain is left with wondering what I will hear. They don't want to share anything over the phone or mail it to me without the doctor talking to me. So I am left with waiting until I return from out of town to find out the true results of what is ahead of me.
I get to practice putting worry and concern in God's hands. I get to put the uncertainty of tomorrow in His care. But above all I get to rest in my Heavenly Fathers arms as He has everything in control. Like our children do when we take them to the doctor. They watch with eager eyes, they walk closely in our foot steps, and they look for assurance that with all that is happening to them they are okay. With every ounce of love we have it is pure joy to care over the details and care of our precious ones. We get to be the buffer between them and the pain. We get to comfort the one we love so dearly. We get to hold and let them rest in our care.
THAT is what I bring my anxious thoughts...back to remembering...my Father is here with me.
So, a new chapter in our life begins! I have Rheumatoid Arthritis, now what?