- Fear of the financial burden that may be put back on the family with unknown test and their cost.
- Fear in talking to a doctor that might not like the thought of me asking about how to fight this naturally.
- Fear of them trying to scare me to death into strong medication is not something I want to face.
I am NOT opposed to taking meds I just want to make a wise decision that is best in the long run. (I have an entirely new appreciation for the battle so many face when looking into cancer or other severe medical decisions.)
*You know, there are just some days when the emotions are just sitting on your sleeve and I feel like today is one of them.*Knowing that I was able to control this some with diet change is HUGE! I experienced 5 weeks of bliss. Now I am faced with some of the problems resurfacing and I struggle to get back to controlling my environment.
I have found that when I run around like a crazy woman I have no time to focus on what I need to focus on for me. From laundry to dishes, tennis to church, school to academy, boys to girls, teens to toddlers, small group to church events, meals to more meals and more meals with this crowd I am discovering I better make time somewhere to do this!
The problem is I DON'T WANT TO FOCUS on me! I want to do the job I have always done in caring for my family and keeping the household in forward motion. So today as I take a moment to shed some tears, to dig into God's word for comfort, and run downstairs to stop the childhood squabbles I hope to be in a better frame of mind in a few hours!