It hasn't been an easy year for us financially and yet how could I complain...we have been blessed in many ways. It is hard not to worry and fret especially in todays economy with our finances. When I feel my moments when I want to just fall apart I am reminded that God is in control. I can't explain it...I just KNOW it. It is the peace that passes all understanding. About the time I think this is it... "we aren't gonna make it financially", God provides.
Why is it I can't seem to rest in that knowledge all the time?
I have yet to see a moment when He hasn't provided.
Although, I can say it does not always look the way I thought...that might be why I fall apart. I am looking for His provision but in the wrong direction.
This week I was left once again with more curriculum to buy, little food to last the rest of the week before payday and looking at what I could juggle. Of course there are other things...but those were the most pressing at the moment. Any other age group and I could fudge on the school...but when you have a high schooler there is no room to wait on their school subjects. I was even ready to tell the kids....it is slim pickins' no complaining about the food. Then when I really wanted time to worship (my moment to fill me up).... I have a sick husband and little boy and I knew I was missing an opportunity of worship and blessing at our church.
BUT to my amazement...God has met my needs once again! A friend provided the curriculum we needed. We received a phone call this morning of another bringing over food. AND although I missed worship at the church, God provided it in my home. All in about one hour....God answered my specific prayer! (well...been praying for awhile on these things...but in a moments notice all my worries turned to praise) It has been a wonderful morning as I am reminded once again that God is there to meet my needs.
My heart is at peace and I feel blessed! If you are struggling, keep your eyes on Him, and watch with open eyes at the HOPE something will happen. We never know when or how He will provide, but He does! Praying you experience the peace that passes all understanding.